自从在网上看到涂序新博士在浙大的跳楼自杀事件后，我一直处于一种恐惧恍惚的情绪中。
仿佛自己也曾经，一同站在那最高的第十一层楼顶上，万籁俱寂，万念俱灰，只求纵身一跃，永得安息。
于是多少次从梦中惊醒，发现自己还活着，只是活得冰凉，活得无力，活得那么的不真实。
一个曾经鲜活的灵魂，走了，带走了自己的痛苦，却为世间敲响了丧钟，涂博士再也无法听到这个世界纷繁芜杂的声色犬马。

同龄的我们，灵魂依然在煎熬。

We have  all been cheated of the best things that life has to offer.
We were growing up in the process of creating ideas and dreams about what the world should be.
We´ve tried everything to implement our ideas only for proving that they are true.
We forgot the world is growing actually much more faster than our ideas do.
Our lives depend on the faith.
When it´s gone, the life is also fading away.
Sooner or later, it´s just a matter of time.
If we dont realize that the world is changing.
How i wish i could be there,
be there to hold the lost body the lost soul!
 

没有一个人是一座孤岛，任何人的死亡都是我们的死亡，因为我们是人类的一份子，丧钟不是为谁鸣，丧钟是为我们鸣*。


No man is an island

-- John Donne

No man is an island, entire of itself
every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main
if a clod be washed away by the sea, 
Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, 
as well as if a manor of thy friends or of thine own were
any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind
and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls
it tolls for thee. 


* 网络上盛传的John Donne的诗。